-The Fountain- Tarot Deck

Stay Curious: What do we have now? 

Some sort of transitional emotional surprise… 

Our Crab moon is full of feelings, feelings personal to you, ideas too, and though you may or may not express them, you won’t be able to hide, not from yourself anyway… it will come out sideways if not front and center. 

Our Moon  is  from the past and for the future. It’s a sort of test run even as it provides an actual shift.  We are not beyond a revelation. I don’t know if that sounds pompous or obvious, but I want to note that this is a condition of being human, or perhaps a condition of all life; we can yet be surprised. 

We contain awe and it can be forced up out of us, or on into us, in circumstances so unexpected, that the awe completes us or re-creates us: we have new eyes to see.

Mars is still backwards, and Mercury also looks back. What do you need to rescue that you left behind? An idea ? A person? A plan? 

Where is your new start? 

For your Mercury retrograde the key is that it’s Capricorn: think linear, structural.

As you reorder your words, you reorder our worlds. And you know what happens then; it makes the impossible, possible, you make the intangible, tangible. 

Preparation; the moves you make now set it up. 

Capricorn is an achievement of determination mixed with timing. Things fall into place, not without effort, no, things fall into place with YOUR TOTAL INVOLVEMENT. Things fall into strategic, unexpected, predestined place. Right place, right time. Pluto orders our steps. That means need, not want, it means destiny: right thought, right alignment. And this in and of itself is a big change. 

In 2023, we see that there is no longer any reason why not. All the hesitations, and the logjam of the last two years, begins to move.  The world stops holding its breath and shadowboxing old ghosts. 

What’s the first thing you will do when you find you can move unencumbered? 

Mars stations direct on January 12. Mercury  is straight from the 18th.  On January 21st our new year actually arrives with the New Moon in Aquarius.

Does anyone remember Aquarian poet Richard Brautigan?

For this Moon, I remembered a poem of his called  My Name 

I’ll read it now:

– My Name 

I guess you are kind of curious as to who I am, but I am one of those who do not have a regular name. My name depends on you. Just call me whatever is in your mind.

If you are thinking about something that happened a long time ago: Somebody asked you a question and you did not know the answer.

That is my name.

Perhaps it was raining very hard.

That is my name.

Or somebody wanted you to do something. You did it. Then they told you what you did was wrong—“Sorry for the mistake,”—and you had to do something else.

That is my name.

Perhaps it was a game you played when you were a child or something that came idly into your mind when you were old and sitting in a chair near the window.

That is my name.

Or you walked someplace. There were flowers all around.

That is my name.

Perhaps you stared into a river. There was something near you who loved you. They were about to touch you. You could feel this before it happened. Then it happened.

That is my name.-

I feel that we are all like a fawn in a forest… it will take a little coaxing,

 or maybe not 

maybe when what you have desired comes within shouting distance you will beckon it forward, with what is mostly love.  

Lorca has this to say:

– There are souls that you feel to lean forward to, like a sun-filled window.-

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The mystic Nina Gitana writes: 

-When Beauty shows itself, all the essences of life converge in it as a center, and it therefore has as a tributary the entire universe.-

That’s something lovely to think about. Nina Gitana is gone now, but I have been many times to her cave in the woods, a real place, where voices are silent, and the stream bubbles just as if it had been instructed to be the voice of the forest. I think about that cave sometimes when I want to be recharged. Sitting on cushions in the dim light of candles, inside the living rock, or peering out of  mica windows to a world much altered, seen literally as the rock sees it,  through a thin lens of minerals, a softer world, and a quiet one. 

 For this full moon, let memory restore you. Trust in the love you have felt, the places where beauty has touched you. These places are maps and references. As alive now as they ever were… Time, of which this moon is so aware, time asks us to bring the past to life, where and how we need it: to shelter ourselves in love. Not because of a terrible storm, but because beauty gives us strength, and gives us courage, courage we will need in the year ahead, not because our year is so terrible, or even that there is a battle for us to fight. No. It’s something else, it’s that to trust anyone, we need to stay curious and to trust ourselves, and it is this exercise for which we prepare. 

To make alliances, to court peace, one should be at peace, or as near as we come, and in that spirit, perhaps we can welcome the unknown when it arrives, as something deeply rewarding, something nourishing, a minor miracle. The year of the Water Rabbit soothes us, it gentles us… Soon. That’s so soon. 

Chet Raymo writes:

-I have a friend who speaks of knowledge as an island in a sea of mystery…We dredge up soil from the bed of mystery and build ourselves room to grow. And still the mystery surrounds us. It laps at our shores. It permeates the land. Scratch the surface of knowledge and mystery bubbles up like a spring.-

As you breathe in now, air enters your body, and becomes your body. Let’s do it together now: 

There are no meaningful separations between the vibrations that describe you and the vibrations of the molecules that surround you. 

I’m so glad you are alive and breathing here with us.